i just wanna fly away sometimes
gosh im such a goober. i dont have a lot of time to make anything oerfect and make sense but i will say that im holding so many things inside that i could just burst. I was driving to work this morning an couldnt help but imagine rollin all my windows down, blasting Freshman by who knows who an closing my eyes just driving. Feeling so free and not having a care in the world what happens to me, if i live or die.
I needed to scream at the sky today. I needed to yell an bang my head over an over again til i couldnt feel any pain anymore. Pain from you, pain from me, pain from my family and friends....pain that was placed on me.I just wanna be free....some girl he fucked totally walked over while we were out togetehr last night an one...i would never have that much disrespect for anyone to do that and two i would have more respect for my man that id introduce him an be liek yeah this is my baby....he didnt an it was the second time he had embarassed me. I dont wanna argue so i didnt bring it up but speaking to two guys that really know me were surprised i didnt leave his ass there last night so they could spend the whole night together. Gah, my whole day ive been wearing a mask smiling when inside im being shredded apart. Im done bein walked over, if i cant get some kind of control over my love life then i need to take it out on my body. Im goin on a fast. I can do this an i will. Its gonna be a whole new me.....still feel shitty.
