Gotta FAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ive been so happy and lost my concentration. ughh!
now im beginning to see that all i have is me and im going to get serious again.
so here i go, i will begin fasting at midnight. Sundays are always so busy for me so no eating shall be pretty easy... Ive been so depressed but secretly. I wanna be thin more than anything. An ill do whatever it takes to accomplish that.....

"I wanted to kill the me underneath. That fact haunted my days and nights. When you realize you hate yourself so much, when you realize that you cannot stand who you are, and this deep spite has been the motivation behind your behavior for many years, your brain can’t quite deal with it. It will try very hard to avoid that realization; it will try, in a last-ditch effort to keep your remaining parts alive, to remake the rest of you. This is, I believe, different from the suicidal wish of those who are in so much pain that death feels like relief, different from the suicide I would later attempt, trying to escape that pain. This is a wish to murder yourself; the connotation of kill is too mild. This is a belief that you deserve slow torture, violent death."
— Marya Hornbacher

"I cant stop think i dont exist. But i exist so much it fucking hurts"
- Sasha Suarez

"The word fat assumed a meaning as deadly as cancer. Getting fat was worse than losing your job, worse than being jilted at the altar, worse than living in a trailer park and growing up without shoes. You need to start watching yourself, my Mom said, before it´s too late."
- Unknown

*"I have a rule when I weigh myself; if I've gained, I starve for the rest of the day. But if I've lost, I starve too."
- Unknown

Nothing tastes as good as thin feels
- Unknown

No price is too high to be thin...the sky's the limit...

He ate my heart....

THAT BOT IS A MONSTER!!!
he ate my heart
and yet it amazes me
We got into a fight
over nothing at all (to be honest)
he's somekind of wolf in disguise
besides bein completely LOCO
i dont think callin me cold hearted was necessary, do you?
lol its not like i havent heard it before though
ive been hurt one too many times
and now i know how to manage my emotions
some might find it unhealthy but its all i know
and that is, to not have any at all
The last guy walkin out on me....after my father of course
i loved him. i REALLY loved him. an he left me
no matter how many times i pleaded...oh gah how i pleaded
i promised i would never do that to myself again
walls are up, even when my guards appear to be down, they wont ever be down
so now im alone, and if thats how he wants it then thats how it will be.
no more cryin over stupid ass men that cant make up their mind
or that somehow believe im a play toy....because i am not
so excuse me for not runnin after you beggin to stay w me.
an dont you dare blame it all on me like...well you didnt come after me, so you didnt want me....
what logic is that?!
if yo uwanted me you wouldve done whatev it took!!!! not just walked out
cuz thats the easy part....youve proved you can do that already
i wanted you to prove that you could stay an tough it out
because THAT, anthony is what makes a relationship!
so the best of luck to you finding someone that can care about you the way i did.
im over it, im over you an your drama queen temper tantrums, im over guys period. all i need are my degrees, money an kids, an guess what....i dont even need you for that :)
so farewell, partin is such sweet sorrow
one more thing.................................................................

FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKIN STUPID GAY ASS PRICK!
:) tootles