Ive been so happy and lost my concentration. ughh!
now im beginning to see that all i have is me and im going to get serious again.
so here i go, i will begin fasting at midnight. Sundays are always so busy for me so no eating shall be pretty easy... Ive been so depressed but secretly. I wanna be thin more than anything. An ill do whatever it takes to accomplish that.....
"I wanted to kill the me underneath. That fact haunted my days and nights. When you realize you hate yourself so much, when you realize that you cannot stand who you are, and this deep spite has been the motivation behind your behavior for many years, your brain can’t quite deal with it. It will try very hard to avoid that realization; it will try, in a last-ditch effort to keep your remaining parts alive, to remake the rest of you. This is, I believe, different from the suicidal wish of those who are in so much pain that death feels like relief, different from the suicide I would later attempt, trying to escape that pain. This is a wish to murder yourself; the connotation of kill is too mild. This is a belief that you deserve slow torture, violent death."
— Marya Hornbacher
"I cant stop think i dont exist. But i exist so much it fucking hurts"
- Sasha Suarez
"The word fat assumed a meaning as deadly as cancer. Getting fat was worse than losing your job, worse than being jilted at the altar, worse than living in a trailer park and growing up without shoes. You need to start watching yourself, my Mom said, before it´s too late."
- Unknown
*"I have a rule when I weigh myself; if I've gained, I starve for the rest of the day. But if I've lost, I starve too."
- Unknown
Nothing tastes as good as thin feels
- Unknown
No price is too high to be thin...the sky's the limit...
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