the truth...

He is the truth, he is so real. An I loooove the way, that he makes me feel. An if I am a reflection of him, then I must be fly, cuz his life shines so bright....i wonder does he know.

whew, I do believe the love bug has found me again an bit me hard! This man is a lil bit of everythin wrapped an delivered to yours truly, me. He is smart, sensitive, funny, loves his family, respects his mom, an Is very hard workin and determined. An best of all, he loves me...we have our spats like every other couple but I wouldn't trade our bad times for good ones w anyone else ever! Anthony Wilson...i love you babe. <3

Do me good, and ill treat you right...

Tonight im turning my phone off
ill be with my baby and he's the boss
when i get there he'll hug me gently
but once were alone he'll give me his love so sweetly
I can already feel our bodies pressed together
an i always long to hold him forever
Do me good, and ill treat you right...
Do me good baby, all night.



As he holds back my head an kiss my lips
his hands will creep their way down to rest upon my hips
I love to squeeze him as were cheek to cheek
and he'll kiss my neck makin me go weak
ill run my fingers under his shirt
i have to smile cuz im such a flirt
Do me good, and ill treat you right...
Do me good baby, all night.



I know then ill feel him rise
he knows I want it from the look in my eyes
we always make sure to grab protection
this is much more than a sexual connection
I am his an he is mine
our love will withstand for all time
do me good an I'll treat you right
do me good baby, all night...

There goes my baaaaaaaaby!

He says i remind him of Usher's new song
There goes my baby, the words aren't wrong
I am his and he is mine
our love connection didnt waste any time
His arms, his lips, his tongue and all
makes me shiver cuz im not one to fall--
in love so fast it cannot be
i look at my smiling reflection thinkin "DAMN THATS ME!"
Im loved and lovin him could this be a dream?
i know him inside an out this isn't a scheme.
An when i lay in his arms at night
I make him promise to hold me forever tight
Ill say it loud, proud and over again...
He is my man, lover and best friend

So every night before i lay
i thank God for this man he made
Once he was given the air to breathe
he traveled along his path, and ran into me
and ever since that fate filled day
weve been in love; forever an always...

Brushin my teeth with a bottle of Jack...!!!!

So my guy an I are doin good. A problem that ive run into in past relationships is that i get bored...or they just get dull. Were havin that mini problem now...he doesnt notice anything but i do...
Im still bigger than ever...i almost wanna do a liquid fast but i want to look online for other fasting options, my hun leaves town this weekend so i think its a perfect time to fast maybe start Thursday an go til Sunday when he returns.
Ive been textin a guy that got my number from a mutual friend. They both want to have a threesome with me....CRAZY!!! Im not down for that at all but he's fun to text lol for entertainment when im bored.
Ive been hangin with this guy i work for, he's a total sweetie. He plays guitar, piano, drums, mandalinjob and interns at a recording studio. He cooks, his place is clean, an he's got great style. He thinks im gorgeous hahaha an he's def a cutie! Sooo i cant help but want to eff him this weekend while my boy is outta town for basic training....ill think on it.
My car was broken in too....all my shit is taken. I was sad then pissed now i just have no hope for mankind anymore. Its ridiculous the stupid shit people feel like they need to steal...my backpack? My dancebag with my smelly shoes? My make up...? Can we say unsanitary? They did take my car charger, my ipod an gps though...ughhh...i do hope they get what they deserve but id much rather prefer to SEE to it myself!
Life's a bitch.
Tootles!

To Eat or Not to Eat...? Thats the question!

So I have gon veg an thats great! I feel great, but not thin. So im not sure what else to do!!!! Im pretty sure i need to fast but ive got to do it when i dont have a lot goin on because while im teaching and dancing, if i dont eat then i get way too dizzy and its not good. I heard of a detox that i could go on an its helpful with sheddin a pound or two...but im just not so sure yet. I wanna lose atleast 10 pounds an then tone up, ugggh decisions!

Happy Valentine's Day!

He intoxicates me with desire
When were together the passion feels like fire
I'm his lady, an he's got me doin things i never do
but he's so damn good to me, he'll forever be my boo
Every time he puts his hands on my body...
i have to smile cuz i know were bout to get naughty
He gets me so hot, we could be on a mountain top
an id still be screaming "Baby, please, don't stop!"
But that's behind closed doors, ill always hold him down
im sure we've got haters, but sorry ill be around for awhile.

Gravity

"Somethin always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
no matter what ill say or do
i still feel you here, til the moment im gone
you hold me without touch
an keep me without chance
ive never wanted anything so much
then to drown in your love and not feel your pain

Set me free, leave me be, i dont want to fall another moment into your gravity
here i am, and i stand, so tall...just the way im suppose to be
but your on to me, an all over me

You loved me because im fragile, an i thought that i was strong, when you touch me for a little while, all my fragile strentgh has gone

I live hear on my knees as i try to make you see that your everything i think i need here on a shrine, youre neither friend or foe though i cant seem to let you go, the one thing that i still know is that youre keepin me....down. Keepin me down....

Youre onto me, youre onto me, an over me....

somethin always brings me back to you...it never takes too long..." ~Sara Barellis

I wanted to share these lyrics because somethin new has occurred. I know that ive been talking to this guy an everything is going great with us but he's away for two weeks doing shit for the army...an its okay...i miss him like crazy but it seems like now thats he's away an we cant text/talk all the time my ex is texting me nonstop....an a lot of feelings are rushing back to me that shouldn't be here....an i hear this song an i feel like this is exactly what were goin through...well on my end. I dont want to be in love with him...he doesnt have those feelings for me anymore an im ready to move on to a guy that clearly really likes me....im still happily talking to the guy as i was in th elast post....but that storm brewin....this just might be the tip of the iceburg...love stinks!