So im back from Chicago!!! It was my first trip with these group of friends an possibly my last... My house is such a battle zone with my mom an i fightin ALL day EVERYDAY that when i get away its my moment of freedom! Well...i get with these girls i wanna sight see during the day as its my first time in the chitown an it only seems right to PARTY all night...the first night we were there...we shopped at forever 21. Not that i dont LOVE that store but we kinda got one here at home, so were basically buying clothes that we could get at home for cheaper due to that difference in tax. Not that i mind spending money...its just kinda second nature. SO I looked hot an got a lot of invites to major parties goin down for the july fourth weekend.........an we attended NONE!!! I didnt wanna go off all alone an on my own so i was back in the hotel by ten almost every night that i was in town. What sucked even more is that i'd go to the lobby an play pool with some people (i lost EVERY game) or use my cellie no longer than an hour an when i got back all my girlies were sleep........at like eleven so i was eft up all night tryin to be quiet an considerate for all the sleepyheads. One of my UBER hot friends lives in chicago an came over to the hotel the last night i was there because he was just gettin in town. So i was hella pumped cuz im like "YEESSSS!!! GETTIN LAID TONIGHT!"
i was wrong...we went to the lobby til everyone was sleep an talked...then talked some more.....I knew he was interested in me because well...hahahaha it wouldnt have been our first time hookin up. BUT he wouldnt shut up talking!!! I kept checkin my cell...2am.....3am....an he wuold just shut up. So 4:30 came and we went back in the room kissed an the alarms went off for everyone to wake up an catch our flight. NOW to his defensive...he has a lot goin on in his life an like me has no one to share it with. He confessed to me that while we were hookin up he had a girlfriend. I wasn't mad at him because we weren't dating BUT i felt bad for her because i am a strong believer of staying faithful. I cheated during one of the greatest relationships i've ever an will ever have an i regret it every day of my life. He confided his illness with me and a whole swarm of legal matters that he's gotten himself into. I felt thrilled to have someone trust me with their secrets to hold. It was on lie teh greatest conversation ive ever had. I never open up anything to anyone because i always know that im bein judged...i guess thats why i blog. I didnt judge him on his faults. I admired him for bein so strong an envied him because i have no one i can talk to like that. I was honored that he trusted me enough to share. He did share with his girlfriend about us an she did leave him... :( but thats teh price you have to pay. I learned something about myself that night.......I always put up a wall so that i dont get close to anyone ever, but that moment that i let it down to show him i honestly cared about what he was tellin me was a feeling ive never felt before an i enjoyed it. I have a big heart an i just wanna share it with someone because it feels soooo good! I'm back into reality now, fightin with my mom an working. Ill post a few chi pics soon...an guess what next week is!!! MY BERFDAY! :) talk to you then an tell you how it was...xoxo be safe
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