im so stuffed i could vomit cotton!

so i want a tattoo darling....what should i get? I want somethin sweet written in cursive...but my torso is sooo short it wont look as good but the small quotes that ive come across are:

"alis volat piopiis" - she flies by her own wings

Annnnd since im named after a bird i think it fits....with a pic of a bird! I also want my lip peirced!

This is sooo jumbled, i wanted to blog about bein sooo love sick. I want love to happen so bad, an i know its nothin i can rush, i met a guy an he likes me an he calls me his girl but i like a guy in another state an we text an talk nonstop an he too calls me his girl but were hours apart...so idk what to do. And as everyone knows im still madly in love with an ex that isnt feeling the same way. Its been three years so dont tell me to just let go because ive been trying! Its soooo hard an im just a big pooey mess........ughh. Im goin to dinner an a movie with the first guy i mentioned, but no doubt ill be texting the second one while im with him an of course thinking about my ex. Complicated this is...Tootles! Sweet dreams...

when the stars go bllllllluuuuuueeeee...

I dont have anything to say really...i just wanna express some thoughts :)

I love the song 'When the stars go Blue'

Dancin when the stars go blue
dancin when the evening fell

dancin in your wooden shoes

in a weddin gown...
Dancin out on 7th street
dancin through the underground

dancin with the marionette

are you happy now...?

I love that song! I try to sing it all the time, even though im no good at singing.

Im sitting in front of the heater right now...it feels gooooood :)

i hope everyone is having abrilliant day! I am!

I hope everyone enjoyed this post.

I hope it warmed your day an made you smile...it made me smile.

Tootles! <3

fuuuuuuuuudge....

not much to say.....
ive been fasting for two days an i fucked up today
im pissed at myself
long story short... i ate:


The guy im talking to doesnt understand the way i feel when i freak out over food and eating so weve been:



I just wanna be:

Today for YOU, tomorrow ME!!

SOOOO hello all! I fasted all day! Yayy me!

My job search ended sucessfully!

I now work at.....(drum roll please!)

*DRRRUUUMMMMSSSS*

I know my fam will hate it because of it being a 'sex shop'

I havent told them yet and im quite afraid to.

The way i see it is holidays are right around the corner an i need money for gifts...

Does that sound like a worthy arguement?

Im gonna have to try it...money is money

Im not workin here for sex tips, pornos, or anything of that matter...

Ive applied everywhere an they LOVE me!

They wanna make the place look more professional and i reckon thats ME :)

IM EXCITED!

So, next to attck on my list is a topic everyone knows i LOVE....

MEN!

I love men!I order em like coffee; tall, mocha with sugar and cream of course hahaha and the ones that know how to stick a straw in are def keepers...

But what happens if they arent tall? Yikes! Im 5"7. I like em tall or not at all. Im beginning to think my standards are based simply on society and not on what counts, like how much he'll love me and how honest and faithful our relationship will be.

I met a guy...i think he's sweet. He's waaaay shorter than I am. He's older, He's about to graduate an go after his masters, he has a job his own car and his own house...But i just don't know...i cant get over his height and being seen in public with him. Im afraid of introducing him to my friends because he is geeky looking...not attractive at all. I love it when he texts me though an i love it when he...inserts the straw hahaha. Idk if he's my prine charming just yet though.....hmmmm....

lets go PINK!

It's breast cancer awareness month ladies! Its time we step and reclaim our boobies and fight off breast cancer. Ive lost two family relatives to cancer and one to breast cancer...dont think youre excluded men. EVERYONE should be checked regularly for breast cancer...i want to show my support by blogging and spreading some vital information! Please...post why you want to fight breast cancer...or if you know anyone battling it now...or if you simple lost a loved one to it. Let us know and let us support you and your fight! Here are some little facts about breast cancer...
Breast cancer is the most common cancer in women in the United States, aside from skin cancer. According to the American Cancer Society (ACS), an estimated 192,370 new cases of invasive breast cancer are expected to be diagnosed among women in the United States this year. An estimated 40,170 women are expected to die from the disease in 2009 alone. Today, there are about 2.5 million breast cancer survivors living in the United States.
Breast cancer is a malignant tumor that grows in one or both of the breasts. Breast cancer usually develops in the ducts or lobules, also known as the milk-producing areas of the breast.

All of this information and more can be found at: http://www.nbcam.org/patient_newly_diagnosed.cfm

R.I.P. pat dave and fred tindall

Easy like Sunday Mooooornings....

So! Today wasn't a terrible day :)
A friend and I are on a pretty strict diet for the next two weeks....my first day i bombed. She did well but i didnt tell her i cracked because i already feel the pressure an grossness of myself to be mad at me enough for the both of us. I am makin up for it though...tonight ill do like millions of tummy work outs an tomorrow im walkin my dogs sooo much cuz i bought a step counter an theyll be beggin for me to take em home...just depends on if mother nature will be kind to us. My body aches from all day rehearsals Saturday. It was a rough one but i made it through...barely. I felt like a gross lard of blubber and that why i was extremely enthusiastic about this diet and i blew it too...Tomorrow im on it. Im only eating one meal...everything else will be water and an apple. It simply has to be. Im quite tired...im listening to John Mayer's City Love...check it its fabu! Goodnight!! Sweet Dreams :))

the memoirs of the eveil stepmothers stepdaughter...

mi madre es un total
I know weve all seen the movie cinderella and how the evil stepmom treats her and how she makes a brave escape to her prince charming. Back to reality...what happens when there is no castle over the hill and just down the street...? What happens if prince charming is the bus boy two towns over? Or the drunk that hangs around the liqour store?? What if when we do get married we dont last happily ever after...? Or i begin working late and come home to find another woman? Or worse...I get so tired of thr fightin and i leave.....an never return? And the big secret of this whole fairytale nightmare is that the evil sttepmother is actually my mother. I dont like to say mom because thats too warm...and there is nothin warm about this woman.

What to do? What to do? I usually try to blog a day or two apart but i seriously just cant take it anymore. I told her that id like to volunteer for the big brother big sister program...she laughed an said youve got two younger siblings. DUH!! I have her children EVERYDAY! But she mad mouths me everytime she opens her mouth that they dont respect me at all...i ask them to do things i wanna have fun with them and its like im a big joke. They dont come to me with homework and ive actually heard my brother say ask her and my sister looked over at me and kinda brushed it off and said...uhh id rather have your help. Im not in a dorm and the witch never lets me hear the end of it!!!
When my mom was my gae she was runnin around sleepin with her boyfriend...also known as the man whose sperm helped make me. He wasnt much of a father so i call him by his first name...side story...when i was in 8th grade my mom finally took him to court for child support...i didnt know who he was until our case was called up. I hadnt seen him before seein as how he ran out on our family right after my birth. ANNNNNNND were back...so my mom messed up an had to come back home too, just as i did...except she came home with a baby. i didnt...my abuela has informed me that she didnt nag my mom about the past, she just helped her create a better future...great advice i wish my mom could live by...enough naggin...i just want someone to care. The end.